Giving Thanks.

I am thankful for...
• My family. They are my everything; even though we couldn’t all be together on this thanksgiving, I am still so blessed to have them in my life. My parents are the best parents in the world and they’d do anything and everything for me as I’d do for them. My brother and sister are my heroes and mentors. I look up to them in various aspects of my life. All-in-all, I aspire to be them.
• My friends. I’ve had many, many acquaintances so far, but my true and real friends are beginning to seep through the seams. Especially being away at college, I’ve realized what friends have been here for me through the good, the bad, and the sad. I’m so thankful for them.
• My health. I’m so grateful for the opportunity to continue to play the sport I love every day and have very minimal aches and pains within my body.


I am beyond thankful for everything that I have in my life.
I am truly blessed and I vow to never forget it.

xoxo,
Jayy.

Heaven Only Knows.

Today, the sky blended with the ocean.

"Then I saw all that God has done. No one can comprehend what goes on under the sun. Despite all his efforts to search it out, man cannot discover its meaning. Even if a wise man claims he knows, he cannot really comprehend it." Ecclesiastes 8:17

"What if's" race through my head all the time. What if this happened? Then, this would happen? THEN that would happen? Oh my goodness, then I'd be like that! All in thirty-seconds or less. Funny thing is, I visualize every step of the way too. Whether the events are my college basketball career or my chosen professional career, I can't seem to dodge the "What if's".
However, if we live our lives like this, one doesn't truly live. Stuck in the future slash an imaginary world isn't being present in your day.
I struggled with this the most my junior and senior year in high school. With the numerous college admissions, I would plan out in my head how my life would be if I got accepted to each school. I put so much energy into that part of the process instead of taking a step back and counting my blessings that I can even apply to nine colleges. I tried to force my future at a university that didn't even accept me after all; but it was all for a reason. I wasn't meant to go there and I'm thankful.
I'm in the process of learning that we have no control over how our future pans out. Yes, we can guide it in the right direction BUT, at the end of the day, God has a perfect plan for each of us and that everything happens for a reason.
Heaven only knows. Just breathe; center yourself and focus on today--the present moment.


Have a blessed day..in fact, have a blessed moment,
xoxo
Jay

She Will Be Loved.

Photo cred: Riley Fields
At this point in my life, I'm searching. Searching for motivation to complete assignments. Searching for love; either Mr. Right or Mr. Right Now. And searching for who I want to be. Searching high and low. And I've learned that's okay. I've learned that it's fine to not know who I am right now. I'm 18 going on 19; I have come to the compete understanding that one must love yourself (with all imperfections included) until one can love anyone else.

"It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along,
My heart is full and my door's always open

You come anytime you want...
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved, and she will be loved
And she will be loved, and she will be loved

MAROON 5 - SHE WILL BE LOVED

It's a work in progress, as everything in life is. But the best part is, I've come so far already.
Life is a journey, not a destination and if you remember that, everyday will be a journey within itself. As John Legend says, Each day gets better and each day continue to learn something new about yourself.

Yes, I will be loved..but I will be loved by my self first.

Poetic Justice.

If I told you a flower bloomed in a dark room, would you trust it?

Truly in love with this album Good Kid: M.A.A.D City. The California native, Mr. Kendrick Lamar is like a blessing to my ears; he's a unique mixture of Lupe Fiasco, Wale, and Drake to me. Love, luv, LOVE!


every second.
every minute.
Man, I swear she can get it.

That is all, goodnight.

xoxo,
Jay

The Loft.

I'm a futuristic strength; therefore, planning my future loft (in downtown San Diego) is nothing out of the norm for me. All in all, I want my future home to feel "homey", not like a model home or a doll house. I want the company I invite feel instantly welcomed. I want to walk around and know that it's my home because of the details that show my unique personality.
As I stare into my dorm room where all of my belongings are crammed onto one side, this vision slash dream of this loft needs to become a reality...fast!

For my first space to call my own, I want a loft that symbolize that young twenty-something sophisticated female. I also love the grand space that I could do what I please in it; it's like a blank slate.

I have also also said how I want to have a dash of color here and there throughout the space. The vibrant colors brings energy to the room, which is equal to my personality.

I will have a black and white kitchen! *Stomps foot* Never mind the fact that I don't actually do much cooking BUT that means that it will always look clean!

...I've put much thought into this...

And, lastly, somewhere in my house will reveal my obsession with the lovely Audrey Hepburn. A mural, a painting, a shrine-- something! Perhaps this canvas could go in my black and white kitchen? Hmmmm the possiblities!


Ah, the future and what it holds. One can dream, can't they?
What do you like better for your first place: an apartment, a loft, a condo, or a house?

xoxo,
Jay

November, please be good to me.

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious in itself. Sufficient for the day is it's own trouble."

Matthew 6:34



Begin each day as if it were on purpose.
Does that count for months too? Sigh. Basketball season starts, a ridiculous research paper is due, Thanksgiving!, and trying to figure out this San Diego weather is what my November is looking like. Each month, I try to set goals slash expectations of what's up and coming and for this month, I got nothing; I've hit a blank wall. Right now, I kind-of want to expect the unexpected. If I don't have such high hopes for the next 25 days left of the month, this means I can't get let down, correct? I don't know, over-thinking is a hobby of mine you know... unfortunately. BUT I have done some slight soul-searching lately. I've notice that if I wake-up tired, cranky, and having "self-talk" that it's going to be a crappy day, then unsurprisingly, it's a crappy day! (hold for applause) BUT, today, I woke-up (on time) put on my tulle skirt and had such a lovely and productive day! Ok, ok first of all, one truly can't have a bad day in a tulle skirt, like c'mon, it's borderline impossible. Also, I got an extra hour of sleep thanks to daylight savings time....now I'm starting to think this epiphany I had while walking to chapel this morning was a fraud.

Ah, well. All I do know is that tulle skirts are fun, cheetah print is even more fun, and when you pair them both with light brown booties, you have a good day.


xoxoxo,
Jay

Spotlight: The Lovely Audrey.

My obsession: I love everything about this woman; from her fashion sense and style to her outlook on life. I just adore her. Breakfast at Tiffany's and Two for the Road are two of my favorite movies because of the demeanor that Mrs. Hepburn brings to the screen. Classiness along with beauty -- she will forever be an icon in my eyes.
xoxo,
Jayy