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Lying down in my plush bed in the pitch-black dark—thinking. Gazing above at the glow-in-the-dark stars that are randomly placed on my ceiling, I begin to wonder what is one word that describes this complicated 18-year old girl; one word that describes Jordan Ailene Ligons to the “T” which can also sum up the multiple personalities that are bottled inside. An epithet that is detailed enough to capture the true essence of me. Think. Think. Think. Numerous words come to mind: different, imperfect, confident, unique, stylish, and even happy. However, none jump out at me or fully explain the young woman I am today; none confess the energy that I put forth to make me, me. Then, finally, it hit me like a ton of bricks. “Maybe I don’t have a word just yet,” I whispered aloud. My puppy stared at me in confusion, “Maybe I haven’t found it yet.” I’m not even close to the person that I aspire to become. I continue on this journey day to day not knowing what the future holds but in search for something— something that will make this wait worthwhile. I am a young woman in search for my word.
This word that I’m in search for won’t necessarily have to be the fanciest word that is in the dictionary. This word can be three letters long or thirty letters short. This word will make me smile and have the feeling of accomplishment come over me. I simply don’t know where this special word for me is hiding and I shall not know until I find it; the journey will take as long as needed. Yes, we can all Google search “describing words” and wait anxiously to see which ones pop-up as we nod our heads in agreement and yell, “Oh yea! That is totally me!” Or maybe we can let life happen and let the epithet naturally find its way in reaching us.
The journey continues…
Jayy
[Photo Creds: Riley Fields]
