This, I Believe.

On a Mission to Pursue Happiness

   I believe that happiness comes from within. Some may argue that they have not found happiness yet or are in continual search. Some say that happiness is a choice and it could come at any given time. Happiness is a nine-letter epithet that tends to be reconciled with smiling and laughter. However, happiness can be merely pure contentment with one’s self and one’s life. Having my brother and sister home for Christmas after foregoing a long time away seemed as close to happiness as one could get. Surrounding each other as a family—a whole family— just seemed right. As if that light that was happiness seemed to dim as each of them began to board that plane doubt then crept within. Doubt of the fact that happiness isn’t here to stay; doubt that despite all the troubles I am going through, that sheer moment of content will never come again; doubt that maybe happiness isn’t meant for me.

            The simplicity of it all is that happiness is destined to be continual and that we are all destined for happiness. Each night that I poured out my feeling onto my journal’s lined pages, I sometimes end in the wee hours of the morning with tears rolling down my face, sometimes a smile, or sometimes a yawn. However,every single time I write in that journal, ever since I received it as a gift three years ago, I sign, “love always, Jordan Ligons…On a mission to pursue happiness”. Despite the fact that some nights I despise myself for accumulating the words on the paper because “happiness” seemed unattainable but I knew, for a cold hard fact, that one day, one day I would be happy; content;peaceful; satisfied; no one to compare myself to and nothing more to need. Happiness. Real happiness. Happiness is purely a journey, not a destination. Each journey starts with a single step and continues one step at a time. This, I truly believe.         

xoxo,
Jayy